★MehMeh

i dont know what should i feel now.many things went through my head.and i really dont know what to do.maybe,its really a random thing for me to go party now.and its a bestfriend of mine that im rejecting if i refuse to go and on another hand its my gf whom i loved soo much is doesnt like it if i go.sighh.i really dont want to dissapoint both.really.its just that i just want the best for both.and bestfriends bf is coming bck soon.sighh.and you do have the rights to stop me okay..damn.i feel really bad now.seriously.yes i do wanna be happy,and i want you to be happy to.soo what does that suppose to mean?...go for an open relationship?baby,its ridiculous.and i really dont believe in that,coz we have no responsibilities at all.which mean nothing.NOTHING.i really hate it when baby even mention bout it.it hurts.alot.sighh.

we can make it through together.and i want you to trust me,me gng party before is just to chill and dance.coz i enjoyed dancing,and chilling with friends.ive got no time to bitch around coz i know that deep down i really love you.and you know that very well.and i dont blame you for all this.seriously.its not your fault.i know what i wrote lay infront of many eyes.but this really came deep down my heart.i really love you and i cnnt afford to loose you.im soo sorry if did hurt you in any ways.i hope you get what i mean.i want the best for us.and not to mute.i just want you to say it all out.say it to me straight to my face.its all up to you now.baby,i know how it feels if i were to be in your shoes.im sorry once again and to bestfriend,you dont have to feel bad at all okay.bacause its not your fault.i should stand up for myself and think bout ppl around me who cares and wants the best for me..

baby,thanks for caring i really do appreciate that alot.lets do this together.i dont want us to give up.and and yes we said that we wanna go far.yes we will.lets do this for US okay.once again,im sorry.baby,it hurts,i know.i apologise.i love you girlfriend.sighh.